Spring Smokes

Strains I can't get enough of this spring and a note 😊

If you’re anything like me, you’ve been waiting for the weather to break since last summer ended. Seriously, the winter plus pandemic wasn’t kind to me, and I’m so happy to be inching out of my seasonal depressive slump. When I find myself down, I often turn away from weed as opposed to towards it. I’ve probably said this before, but I don’t like medicating when I’m feeling down, and sometimes it can feel like a chore to figure out WHAT to consume, so I just don’t.

Now that the sun is playing peek-a-boo with us and 60-degree days are practically the norm, I’ve been seeking out uplifting, balanced hybrids to match the sunny vibes, boost my mood, and reduce my anxiety. Behold my strain recommendations for spring activities like “picnic in the park with friends,” “rosé at the beach,” or the dreaded Spring cleaning. I’ve posted about both of these strains on Insta, but they feel even more timely now that spring has sprung.


Mac 1, or Miracle Alien Cookies 1, has a pastry-like flavor profile with hints of citrus. The flavor is yum, but for me, that’s secondary to the effects. I carry my anxiety and stress in my body in the form of aches and chest discomfort, but MAC 1 nips that right in the bud with its relaxing body effects. That, coupled with mental clarity and the ability to be present, make MAC 1’s effects a triple threat for me. I love this strain so much I bought it in vape cart form—y’all know I don’t fancy vaping— because I need that on-the-go relief. If you’re anxiety-prone and need assistance unwinding, MAC 1 might be the feel-good strain you need to make the most of Spring.

Mandarin Cookies

Mandarin Cookies took me by surprise the first time I tried it because the effects were uncomfortably cerebral and made me sleepy, despite what the Leafly description said. 🙄😂 In the spirit of not judging a strain by one experience, I decided to try it again, this time from a different cultivator, and what a difference it made! Mandarin Cookies brings out my lust for life! It truly feels like sunshine after a really long rainy season, aka a pandemic. This strain made me feel like myself. The me I am when I’m not depleted. The me I am when I’m confident in who and what I am, despite the really shitty state of the world. I never fly through strains, but this one was gone in a week, and it only lasted that long because I was trying to be modest. The right cut of Mandarin Cookies is euphoric without the racy brain effects, perfect for floating through the weekend with folks you haven’t seen in a year. 😊

A Note

I wrote the above, and it felt flat because while I did want to share my spring strain round up, those thoughts are secondary to the extreme burnout I’m feeling. Work has been unfulfilling and draining. Luckily, I got a new job, which I’m super excited about, but of course, now I'm worried that I won't be able to focus when I start, thanks to my brain on pandemic.

Up in Smoke was once my respite, and now it feels like work. I can't bring myself to sit in front of a computer and create. It doesn't bring me joy the way it used to. I feel bad delaying the newsletter or not posting on Instagram, but I don't have the motivation to create anything. Even thinking about it induces anxiety and starts an internal audio track about how I owe myself rest. I've been wrestling with knowing the difference between when I need/deserve rest vs. when I need to find inspiration to create again. Not adhering to my self-imposed deadlines often feels like taking the easy way out, but I also know I'm prone to overcommitment on all fronts. I’d love to do some content planning while I’m off work, but I’m not going to set unrealistic expectations for myself. Instead, I’m taking another break until at least 4/20, the first anniversary of the newsletter, and the day after I start my new job. I hope that my time off from everything is fun, restful, and just what I need to get back to myself. If you’re experiencing anything remotely close to what I described above, I hope you find time to rest, move, and laugh. We all deserve it!

Hang in there, bbs! I really hope we’re on the verge of a more open world, a more inspired me, and a happier you!

Until 4/20,